In my Zone.

Now all the degree milarkie is over, I am thinking that it might be time to make decisions about what to do when I am a 'grown up'.

You know, I'm 36 for God sake.
I should know already.

I really dont.
I never have.
I had a vague idea once, but once I investigated it, it seems virtually impossible and highly unlikely that I would
a) be selected ... they only took 1% of the applicants.
b) complete the training..... had to go to deepest Scotland for about 9 months....and I was married (different lifetime) and he lived/worked here.
c) do the job without killing someone.

So, you see, now I feel a bit..... well..... stuck.
Because I have never known what it is that I want/should/am capable of doing, I stay doing the same thing. I am in my comfort zone. I can do my job without difficulty and I do love it. I never knowingly put myself out of my comfort zone. I like my zone..... why would I want to leave it??

However...... didnt you just know there would be one of those??? :-) I am gingerly filling in some application forms. Not for, you know, important stuff, but for things that dont make me puke when I think about them. The real reason for this is I have an interview next monday for an internal position that I really really want. Really want. And, if I have a plan B.... then I wont need it. ~(girl logic!)
If, and it is a big IF, I was to get this job it would mean that I have more responsibility and its a kinda sideways move, its within my comfort zone and because its training other people, I would meet more people and that would be cool.
I have, for the last couple of days been preparing for the interview.... they want a presentation and a formal interview (gulp) so now 4 days before its needed I am as prepared as I am gonna be. (4 days before!!!! can you seeeeeee how much I want this??)

Keep your fingers crossed?????


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