Parental Watchings.

So, Small and I went to the 1950's.... cos she needed to meet her new Mummy and Daddy!!

Small was soooooo well behaved the first night... it was like an alien had invaded, she was all quiet and watchy. Obviously as she got to know them better she got more like herself, but she did do what I asked her too, which was "break them gently baby" :-)

Just being on the island makes me feel whole, and having Small there just made it more so. What hurt my heart more than I can possibly explain was the way they just 'got' her. Lovely Husband and Oldest Friend showing her things on the beach, just one of them and her. Bending over or squatting down to explain things. Really talking to her. Listening to her. Looking at her. Loving her.
I dont know which of them it was worst with. When He collected shells with her and I was watching or when The Two Girls walked on water to go further out to sea. I did, on both occasions have to blink hard and look away for a second.



lybxx

Lent

When you give something up, or abstain from something for the period of 40 days. 'Parently its a good exercise in will power.

Well, what about those of us that find temptation a bit tricky? What do we do? Use more will power? I guess we do.

What if, having made a decision about what to give up, you have a teeny tiny slip up? Does it matter? Can you just think 'fuck-it' and go back to the whole will power thing?

Thing is, there is just so many things I should give up this year!
Ciggies.
Food.
Being so sarcastic so much of the time to innocent people.
Calling the dog 'You Stinky Old Bastard' (actually swearing in general might be a good thing to quit)
Procrastinating.
Watching Jeremy Kyle.
Snuggleing in my comfort zone....ooooo cant do that... it was meant to be my New Years Resolution! (and for the record I'm doing quite well with that!)

With that list its hard just to pick one! but I have, and its not even a thing on the list!! (grin)
and actually I have, just cos i can, brought Lent forward about 6 weeks and have started it already.
And the whole temptation thing..... bring it on.... It cant get any worse than it is already!!


lybxx

Randem 'googleing'.

I found this....... what do you think?

The sign of Scorpio is traditionally ruled by Mars, although Pluto has also been assigned rulership since its discovery in 1930. Physically it is related to the sexual organs and excretion. It is said to have a feminine nature, and is therefore more passive in its energy expression. As a Water sign it is connected with the world of emotions, particular the deep primeval emotions concerned with sexuality and survival. As a Fixed sign, its energy manifests in a stable manner, giving great determination and endurance. Planets in Scorpio seek to establish emotional security in a threatening world. Hence the association with jealousy and passion.

Anxiety in the face of the unknown and consequently a desire to be able to control what is going on leads to a certain obsessive quality in planets placed in this sign. There is a secretiveness and compulsiveness which is hidden under a facade of strong self-control. Instinctual knowledge, occult talents and psychological ability manifest themselves in Scorpio, because the character dwells on the inner emotional demons most people choose to ignore.

Being able to trust someone, and being sure that nothing is hidden from your considerable perceptive talents are essential ingredients for a good relationship. And intense emotional relationships are very important to you - you do not like superficiality at all. Turning points in your life come in the form of psychological breakthroughs which shake your emotional foundations. Often this will be connected with the transformation of a deep emotional bond, which wakens your latent anxiety connected with emotional security. By giving up the illusion of being able to control others emotionally, you are confronted with your own vulnerability. Your facade of inscrutability is transformed and a softer and more understanding side of your character is evoked. Your greatest talent is your ability to strengthen others by your emotional and mental support.



lybxx